Chic Narcotique

Let it Go

2006-09-27T19:44:55Z

You gotta let it go. You gotta let everything go. And I know you're tired and sad, and sick of smiling when your world is falling apart.

But you gotta let it go. Gotta let go of all the people who've hurt you. You've got to forgive some of them, send the others on their ways. You gotta start to trust people again, gotta start to love.

You have to forget. Forget all the bad times, and focus on the good times. Ren fair, prom, idewild, delgrosso, those days were everything went right. And everything isn't goint to go right all the time, but you have to accept it, then you gotta let it go.

There's nothing you can do to change the world. You're just one girl, but there are things you can do, lives you can touch. And all the bad things life throws at you, you gotta let it go.

Because holding onto it is hurting your friends, the people who care about you, and yourself. And it's not doing any good, so let it go. Take a deep breath, and start to walk on.

And maybe he never loved you. Maybe they wish they never raised you. Maybe she hates you. It doesn't matter, because there's nothing you can do about it. Except let it go.

Enjoy this, maybe you won't end up where you thought you would be, but just let life take you away. You never know what may happen.

Sincerely,
Yourself

NaNoWriMo

2006-09-24T02:32:21Z

Name: Mandy
Nano-name: salemswitch
Locale: Johnstown, PA
Age: 17
Times Nano-ed: Once
Times Completed: I didn't even get close to half way last year. A lot happened.
Novels: None in progress, none completed, and none published :-p
Poetry: A few published in school newspapers, the Tribune once, and a poetry anthology
Genre/s: I've really broadened my horizons, and I'll write just about anything, but my favorite genre is still kind of modern fantasy.
Writing Style: I want my words to paint a beautiful, yet deadly and slightly melancholic picture. Whenever I write something, I struggle to show both the good and bad, or light and dark, good and evil, to portray both sides of the world.
Favorite Author: Hmmm... I have a bunch. I love J.K. Rowling's witty banter style, but I love the way Francesca Lia Block describes everything, in sort of a dark fairy tale style.
Nano Idea: I actually didn't decide to do Nano again until last night, when I came up with the best idea. There's a character I've toyed with for a long time, Valentina Tillue. She's a smart, gifted "Mutant" who happens to be a very important figure from history (can't give it away though :-P) Basically, the story would be about her and her friends, all "mutants", who all play a pivotal part in the world's apocalpyse, and Tina's place in it. I hope to begin the novel with Valentina as a teenager, about seventeen, and work through it as she tries to find a normal life amoung what could be the end of the world. It would show her trying to balance her inevitable destiny with the life she wants, fighting for fairness to all the people like her, whose powers make it hard for them to fit in with regular humans, while also fighting the brewing forces on the horizon, and dealing with everything a young woman's life brings, such as love and friends, and even a few deaths along the way.

Nanogoal: I love this character, and I honestly believe that if I apply myself, I can make the whole word count :-)

chic_narcotique @ 2006-08-11T00:17:00

2006-08-11T04:37:34Z

I know everyone is expecting this to be an emo post. But it's not going to be. I just wanted to say, right here, right now, that I am okay. Actually, I'm more than okay, I'm great. It's over, and y'know what? It's not my fault.

Any boy that makes you cry isn't worth it. Anyone who makes you feel like you're worth less isn't someone you should be with. Anyone who likes to put you down should be friend in the fires of hell and brimstone. Good lord, I'm so dense. I can't believe this only hit me now. All my friends have been saying it, why couldn't I believe it?

I'm me. I'm who I was meant to be. Drama queen, or no. I'm a diva, the life of the party. It's my personality. Yes, it's caused problems, but the people who really loved me and cared at me have always just told me to "Stop being an Evita" or "Stop whining, melodrama." To all of you, thank you, for understanding that a tiger can't change it's stripes, nor would it want to. You've always been there for me. I've been blessed with the best friends the world has ever seen, old and new.

I deserve something great. I've been through a lot in my life, and I'm human, I make mistakes. But I've made it through every bad thing that's ever happened, be it caused by myself or someone else. And I think that those experiences have created someone stronger, maybe stronger than I believed I was.

I'm lucky. Not everyone like me is.

So this is my solemn promise. From now on, I'll be my best. From now on, I'm going to appreciate the people who've stuck beside me for so long. From now on, there is no more regret. I'm still alive today for a reason, and I can make a difference in someone's life.

Thank you loves :-)
-Mandy.

Happy Birthday!

2006-07-29T05:43:39Z

Once in a lifetime, you find a gem. A friend that always knows when to tell you to shut up, and one that knows when to tell you it's going to be okay. I've been fortunate enough to find more than one person in my life that fits that description, but today belongs to one more than others.

Happy Birthday, Meg. She's turned seventeen years old, and I just want to be the first one to say something. Megan is my best friend above best friends. Whether we're forced together out of circumstance (a pair of two in a group of four, not including the odd one). Or perhaps we just complimented personalities.

Either way, she's been there for me. Whether it's telling me to stop being so melodramatic, or telling me that I'm the only one of us that can put anything well writen into their journal, it doesn't matter. We've had our fights, we've had our moments (She nearly drowned me at the beach!).

I wouldn't have given up these last six years with you as my friend for anything, except maybe an Orlando Bloom makeout. ;-) Megan, I want to thank you.

For listening to me cry.
For kicking me when I'm being idiotic.
For saying stupid things and making me look smart.
And most off, for being my friend.

Here's to one more year. If this is our last year together that we can be best friends, I hope we still remain close. And if we leave this year hating each other, I just want you to know it's been a ride, and I loved every moment of it.

So, here's your present!

People

2006-07-16T03:59:12Z

I hate people who hate people.

I hate intolerant, prejudicial, assholes.

He's the sweetest boy in the world? Isn't that enough? He's stuck with me through hell and high water, thick and thin, and managed to keep a smile on through all of it. And I know if he did all of that for me, he'd do it for anyone.

So what does it matter if he's straight or bi or gay? He finally had the balls to tell his family that he is indeed at the least bi, and possibly completely gay (he's still trying to figure it out, and knows he is definitely attracted to other guys) and they totally freaked out on him, despite the fact that he's been there for all of them, even babysitting his own parents. They freaked and told him to get out.

How do you deal with that? How can you be who you were before after knowing that the people you love can do that to you? I feel sick talking about it, how must he feel? How much must it hurt?

And how can somebody do that to their own son? Their own brother? Their own friend.

Assholes. Assholes the whole lot of them.

I <3 you babe, always here for you.

EMO!

2006-06-19T02:59:35Z

My mom just bought me the biggest, most emo glasses I've ever seen.

I love them :-) Of course, it helps that I have the type of face that can pull off the big sunglass look.

I know some people will laugh at this, but I love big sunglasses. And I know they look god awful on some people.

But I think they're cute, so I'm keeping mine :-)

Edit:

Nerwen asked for it!

You Know I love Cats

2006-06-15T22:44:08Z

Especially black cats, like my lovely Salem.

So this is why I like this story so much :-)

Benscreek woman adopts injured, stray cat

By MATT BODENSCHATZ
The Tribune-Democrat

Just a short month ago, Blackey Homefree was a stray cat in need of a home. Then he found his way to Diane Henry’s house in Benscreek.

Though Henry kept him outside with hopes he would return to his owner, she often fed him and gave him attention.

But June 8, she stepped onto her porch to see a disturbing site: The skin on the cat’s back right paw had been removed.

“When I saw his paw that night, I was in shock,” Henry said. “Before I could pick him up, he took off and I couldn’t find him. I cried all night.”

With hopes of luring him in so she could seek medical attention, Henry left her basement door open all night. Sure enough, in the morning, the wounded cat was sitting on Henry’s washing machine.

“His eyes looked funny, but he still acted friendly,” Henry said. “His leg was swollen and dirty. You’d think he would have been in so much pain and screaming, but he wasn’t.”

Henry rushed the cat to the Richland Veterinary Hospital along Eisenhower Boulevard, where she had two options: Put the cat to sleep or perform surgery.

Being an animal lover, Henry said the decision was simple.

“I couldn’t put him down because he was too nice of a cat. He’s so friendly with people and other pets. He’s just a little lover animal.”

So, on short notice, veterinarian Karen Tiffany performed surgery.

“We had to put the cat under to look at it,” Tiffany said. “He had a degloving injury, where the outer layer of skin is ripped off. It could have been caused by getting stuck (in a trap) and pulling the leg out.

“It was what we consider the heel or ankle area on a human. With cats, it’s not always possible to replace skin, so I made the decision to take the leg off.”

She also neutered the cat, which she estimated to be 2 or 3 years old.

Blackey Homefree was released from the animal hospital the next day and now has a happy home, living inside Henry’s house.

“He has to take two kinds of medications every day,” Henry said. “He takes it pretty well. He doesn’t seem to be in any pain at all. Since day one, he has been able to get up and get around. It’s amazing what he can do.”

Though Henry still has hopes of finding Blackey Homefree’s owner, she has no problems keeping him as her own.

Tiffany had one piece of advice for Henry, as she cares for a disabled cat: Keep him inside.

“The long-term issue with (the) cat is that you have to keep him indoors because he would be an easy target for a predator.”

The surgery, which cost $512, was too much for Henry to handle on such short notice. So employees at the pet hospital referred her to two nonprofit organizations that are offering financial assistance – Habitat for Hounds and Nardecchia Spay and Neuter Fund.

“(They) are wonderful with helping people,” Henry said.

“Money is tight right now, and they really helped.

“A huge thank you goes out to them. Without their help, I wouldn’t have been able to do this. I also would like to thank Richland Veterinary Hospital, Dr. Karen Tiffany and all of their staff. They stayed late and did the surgery. I want to thank them for seeing him on such short notice.”

Henry initially called the cat Homefree, because he made himself at home at her house.

Her grandson called him Blackey, so they just combined the names.

Donations to cover Blackey Homefree’s medical bills still are being accepted by Habitat for Hounds and the Nardecchia Spay and Neuter Fund.

Scratching for donations

To donate money to Blackey Homefree’s medical bills, specifically mark that in the memo section of the check to these nonprofits. The organizations also accept general donations:

Habitat for Hounds

107 Vivian Drive

Johnstown, Pa. 15904

Nardecchia Spay and Neuter Fund

804 Fronheiser St.

Johnstown, Pa. 15902

If you can spare a few dollars, donate to a good cause :-)

Friends-Only

2006-06-12T06:12:04Z

I'll never use my old one again, so why not?

Assuming anyone will read this one.

Anyway, you know the drill.